LOST

I'm lost, I had no one that I can talk with.
I'm feel helpless. I feel like ran out from my house now but I have no idea where can I go now.
I really need a shoulder. I'm serious.
From YOU? I feel that it is impossible because I am just your normal friend.
Who can I talk with? Heartache now.
Again, I feel headache!
I do not wish what will happen to my mother.
Mother if something really happen on you, I seriously will totally Lost.
I need you, mum.
I'm seriously need a shoulder and i'm totally unhappy now.

Wearing a MASK on my face everyday

What kind of mask? SMILE

I always wearing a SMILE mask in front of others.

I always act like nothing, but actually I'm not fine at all actually.

Recently, seriously damn emotional and down.

My parents are arguing recently, then mum always complain at me about my dad, I damn headache. I'm worry that is it because they are getting old?

Seriously, i'm not fine at all but cannot show it out.

I wish to shout out loud and tell someone that I with to tell my problem.

But the person had already gone.

I cannot complain and tell the person my stuff like last time.

I need someone shoulders but from now I cannot own and use it anymore as it is not belong to me anymore. Actually I don't like to crying alone in my room and listening to those song. Meanwhile, I thinking back those moment when you are here with me.

Another thing that made me feel headache is college reopen soon. MONEY always the problem to me. Sigh. I'm tired, but I do not have someone that I can talk with as it is not like last time. He always can be my listener and made me smile always. Why? Why are you leaving me here. I just can blame myself that choose a wrong timing to fall in love at you.

Still, I can't forgot about you. I miss you and I'm tired as I seriously got a lot of things need to think and all of that made me headache.

This song was shown what I wanted to you, meanwhile crying.

Scare

I'm scare.

I'm shaking.

No please?

What's the meaning of this?

I ask you respect me a bit but you said no please.

It's totally hurt my heart.

Maybe I should not think too much, and yet you're right as she is just a little girl.

Anyway, do remember I love you and I miss you.

Don't you forgot our promises.

I know you can't stand long distance relationship.

But it a must you have to try.

It is just 3 months, are you have already forgot all those moment and memories when we be together?

I do a lot of things for you, because all I did had those memories.

Because I scare you will forgot in a future and so that it can help you to remember.

Maybe I still can't made you totally fall in love to me but I had fall for you in deep.

Anyway, do take care yourself there.

I write blog because blog will the "person" that can let me express all my feeling.

Got a work

Today I got my work.

It is a way for me to don't think too much.

I'm not really happy but I try to be.

As I still can feel my bf Tan Chyn Woei still got care about me.

Anyway, I wish he don't treat me cool.
As it is really break my heart.

Baby, please don't go and break my heart.

I love you.

No one

Today just done one of my subject for the final,,

Then went to cheongK with friend,

Today is the day that I had been with him 22months and now it had almost over.

Today I wish he will post and tagged or tell me or give me a message that said about it is 22 months.

But at the end it had not happened, and now is 11.59pm.
So, I hopeless.

Anyway, I cry while driving to home from college as when singing I had already control it.

So, while driving home I had cried out loud as car will only the place for me to cry as no one can see.

I just met my secondary school's friend.

I get scolded by mum, and not I need someone to talk about my sadness and cry alone here.

I wish to be tough.

I don't dare to find my boy friend as nowadays he seems busy and yet I scare it will made me feel annoying.

I damn sad now actually. I do not want to cry everyday.

That's all for today.