LOST

I'm lost, I had no one that I can talk with.
I'm feel helpless. I feel like ran out from my house now but I have no idea where can I go now.
I really need a shoulder. I'm serious.
From YOU? I feel that it is impossible because I am just your normal friend.
Who can I talk with? Heartache now.
Again, I feel headache!
I do not wish what will happen to my mother.
Mother if something really happen on you, I seriously will totally Lost.
I need you, mum.
I'm seriously need a shoulder and i'm totally unhappy now.

Wearing a MASK on my face everyday

What kind of mask? SMILE

I always wearing a SMILE mask in front of others.

I always act like nothing, but actually I'm not fine at all actually.

Recently, seriously damn emotional and down.

My parents are arguing recently, then mum always complain at me about my dad, I damn headache. I'm worry that is it because they are getting old?

Seriously, i'm not fine at all but cannot show it out.

I wish to shout out loud and tell someone that I with to tell my problem.

But the person had already gone.

I cannot complain and tell the person my stuff like last time.

I need someone shoulders but from now I cannot own and use it anymore as it is not belong to me anymore. Actually I don't like to crying alone in my room and listening to those song. Meanwhile, I thinking back those moment when you are here with me.

Another thing that made me feel headache is college reopen soon. MONEY always the problem to me. Sigh. I'm tired, but I do not have someone that I can talk with as it is not like last time. He always can be my listener and made me smile always. Why? Why are you leaving me here. I just can blame myself that choose a wrong timing to fall in love at you.

Still, I can't forgot about you. I miss you and I'm tired as I seriously got a lot of things need to think and all of that made me headache.