just a dream~~~

Today, I was followed my brother going to have a tea with his friends...

They are his boss also...means business partner....

After I met him....I just feel that one of them was looks like my friend....

and the guy has a pair of small eyes.....that's why I felt have a feeling on him...

I like him....then my brother's other friends was told me that he doesn't have girlfriend...

Then I felt sweat =='' at that moment........

Haiz...that's impossible he doesn't has any girlfriend...

some more he sure got like others girl.....

After had a drink with them...

We went to have a movie that's Twilight New Moon...

My brother's friends were so bad...

Because they want me to sit with him and take picture with him..

That's really make me shame...

I know that was impossible I can be a couple with him....

When during the movie, I was felt that want to hold his hand...

but that was impossible...

and I went toilet before ending the movie....

I told myself that there was just a dream and hope the dream will wake up soon....

After we finished our movie then back to our own way...

at that moment my dream was already woke up....

It was just short sweet memory to me...

That's all what I want to said...

Good Night everyone....

lonely & bully~~

Why?? Why others that can get a boy friend at their side.....

Why I still alone here.....

Really felt sad about it...

I know I so ugly and not good...

Actually I just want someone that can share all my life story...

Concern and Love me....

Why?? Why I always alone here..

Already single for around 1 year and a half year....

I really hope my other part will appear soon...

Sometimes single will be easily bully by others...

When get bully but no boy friend that can give a hand to me....

Just like that day...

My colleague boy friend scold me...

At that moment I really cried...

Because I felt no one can share with my sad things..

I really hated that feelings....

Why??

I hope my true love appear soon..

I don't want be single any more...

that's all for today...

good night...

feel so lonely~~

I want someone to accompany when I sad or happy..

Why it was so hard...haiz......

Maybe my life was like that..........

Crying now...

No one will know I was crying now...

I'm so pity...

Why I was said that I was so pity..

Because that was some feeling in my mind was telling me now..

I like them they don't like me...I don't like them but they want to like me..

WHY???

Nicholas I really hope that you will know I was fell in love with you...

But I think you won't know for the whole life...

I really like you....

Don't know why I like you so much...

I hope that you will be okay in any times, at everywhere...

I miss you so much...

I think you will not miss me....

Miss you~~

I quite miss my secondary school friend...

I hope that all of us will be forever friend....

Meng Leng...I was not forget you...

You are my classmates in 4A1 and 5A1...

You help me a lot too...

Why don't you reply my message..

I was missed last time that we hang out together..

I really hope that all of us can hang out together next time...

Missing U~~~~

I felt that I am a loser..

Because I still can't forget him....

I already told myself that I want to forget him...

But it was failed...

Why???

Why I still can't forget him..

Priscilla are you ok???

No, I am not ok...

because I still thinking of him..

already 1 and a half year........

I really beg him to get out of my life..

I'm a loser...

I got a lot of things want to tell someone..

But that someone was hard to find...

hope that the someone will appear in my life soon..

because I don't want to keep all the sad things in my heart..

it was made me suffer...

I'm still waiting for the someone...

I want that someone to stop my tear and keep me a happy life..

Why find that someone is so hard to me..

I really hope that someone give me a shoulder and give me a happy life..

the important things is to made me forget him..

and live happily with that someone...

good night everyone...

Crying~~~

Hooray~~~~~~~~2 months holiday!!!!!!

I was finished my final exam

Then I will started for the 2 months holiday

That's was a full schedule for the holiday

Because I will go for work as a part time and ready for the community service

I hope that my holiday will be a meaningful holiday

I have to start my blog, there will be 2 part of it

Part 1~

Yesterday, after the final exam I went to ate steamboat with my course mate

It was so fun for ate steamboat with them

We are non-stop for taking picture

haha~~

Yesterday was a birthday for Lim Yee also

We didn't bought any cake for her

But we sang 2 times birthday song to her also

haha~~

Why 2 times??

Because the first time was us to sang for her

But the second time was the whole shop's customer sang to her

The feelings was quite nice when sang together

And I can said that our DMC students was so "noisy"

Why I said so

It is because when we go anywhere,

the place was become so noisy

hahaha~~

maybe we are like to talk so much..

around 1opm, we are going back to our own house...

was quite sad for leaving of the shop...

because we won't see each other for around 2 months..

hahaha~~~~~~

SAD things was happen incident

because after I reached home

My friend told me that one of my friend's car window

was broken by gangster

because one of my friend put her bag in the car

my friend said that my friend was cried because she get scolded from her father

this was quite sad when I heard about it

Anyway hope she can get better soon~~~

End for the 1st part

2nd part~

I was went out for the whole day

At first I was went to facial with my elder sister in law

after the facial I went out with my friend

going to her sister event at Subang Parade

After back from there

I was rushing to meet my old friend..Ying Sin

because she was so sad

then I go to accompany with her at McDonald

Why she sad?

because she was having problem with her relationship

I was so sad heard about that

Her boyfriend was so badly...

I hate this kind of boy..

then she let me think back Soh Kah Hin

who my ex boyfriend

Anyway I hope she will be happy soon

She is pretty
NO need worry about noone love her

after accompany her

I was rushing back to home because my brother want go to watch movie

then we go to watch the" Michael Jackson: This Is"

After I watched that movie

I felt that Michael Jackson was so talented

I proud of him

Okay

Is time to said good night to everyone

So tired~~~

Good night

RaNdOm~~~~~~

Random

I just random write whatever I want to write...

Final exam is coming soon....

But I have not ready yet for the final exam...

I'm still waiting my time on the laptop..

Felt that I'm so useless......

Don't know why that I can't be more hard working? WHY?

Who can tell me why???

Nobody...

How I want to face the final exam....

I must try my best....

Stop facebook-ing....msn-ing...

These all please GET OUT FROM MY LIFE( for 1 weeks only)

hahaha....

Hope that I can success....^^

I think the percentage of success will less than failure..

Printer~~~

I just bought a printer yesterday...it cost my dad RM205...

Thanks for dad bought a printer for me..

Because I was looking a printer for a long time..

Just don't know which I want to buy...

Anyway really thanks a lot to my dad....

I want to thanks a lot to my family..

They really love me...

But I really make them disappointed...

Hate myself useless..

The brand of the printer is EPSON...

The modal was the EPSON TX100 series...

I really hate someone..

But I can't said it out..

Because if I said it out sure will made a big trouble..

So I don't want lor..

hihi....

Anyway....

GOOD LUCK to all the students who are the short sem...

Gambateh for your final exam.....^^

Disappointed+Sad...

GETTING ANGRY!!!

I'm writing this blog during the media issue class...

Now just only 9.24am...

Why I suddenly want to write this blog...

Is because I want to talked out all my feelings that inside my heart....

I can't talk it out.......

Just can say it out here....

The feelings that I want to say out is I felt like everyone was hate in the class...

Don't know why....

Especially somebody....

I really disappointed and sad about it...

I can tell you the truth that ALL THE FEELINGS WAS CHANGED~~~

I really don't know how to be a human....

Who can tell me how to be a human???

Why? How?

Why life is so suffer?

Actually I didn't want anything perfect in my life...

I just wan to have a simple and happy life....

I don't want my life so complicated and sad....

I also don't know why I always thinking about the sad things...

I try to not thinking...

Maybe this call causal theory....

Maybe something that influence me.....

There were really many kinds of things that influence me...

FAMILY, FRIEND, LOVE, EDUCATION

These are all the things that influence me...

Really feel lonely....LONELY.......

I think I will keep Miss Lonely as my nickname...

Everyone call me Miss Lonely.....Please....

That's all the things that I want to say it out....

If got time I will write one more blog for today.....

Have a nice day to everyone.....^^

Getting hate someone....

I don't know why I'm getting hate someone...

Haiz....but I can't do anything.......just have to face it...

The feelings was changed already.....

Sometimes I really don't know what I have did...

They hate without reason..

How.......

Why life was so many problem...

I felt like can't stand it any more..

Am I have to quit from my life?

I got thought before that I want to quit....

Haiz....

I really don't know how to be a human....

In the social life were many problems that were already prepare for us to face about it....

PRISCILLA YOU ARE AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS YOU.....

I MISS YOU

I really miss you a lot...

I don't dare to tell you that I miss you...

Because I knew that you won't feel anything about it..

I know you just treat me like a friend..

I don't know why I fell in love with you...

Is it there has a chance for me together with you?

But according to my feelings it won't be happen......

No More Chance~~~

I still waiting for your message.....

I really like you and miss you....

I knew that you won't know....

Hope that you will know one day....

If got fate sure you will know.......

I'm pray for it........

And pray for you are happy in your life and success in your business...

MISS YOU~~~

new updated....

Last few days I just got my psychology mark.....

I was so sad about it...

Because I get the lower mark....

Really sad.....

Today I having my test 2 for the psychology....

It was so disappointed.........

Because I forgotten the point...haiz....

I lost around 15 marks...

Damn sad...

Why I so stupid ar.....

Another things is ...

I was getting to hate someone...

I dunno why the feeling was not like the 1st semester that I studied in college...

Everything was changed....

Haiz...

I don't know how to face the life now.....

that's all for today....

Hope that I can always updated my blog...

Have a nice day for everyone....^^

useless in my family~~~~~~~~~

Why I said myself useless in my family...

Because I really useless.....

I seldom do house work...........

Always like a pig.....

Just know how to eat how to sleep.....

Lazy to do everything also....

I always not respect my family members....

I always make them angry,sad and disappointed...

DAMN PIG

Why I always like that lar....

Last time I won't like that...

Why I already change my attitude....

I want the last time's PRISCILLA....

Where is she~~~~

I really felt that I so LONELY...

I hope that my true LOVE can appear soon...

I really want someone lend me a shoulder....

Why until now also no one lend me a shoulder....

Am I ugly? bad? stupid?

Why ???

Why I so hard to find someone that LOVE me and I LOVE HIM too...

I went to old folks's house yesterday...,,,,

At Puchong there.....name's RUMAH CHARIS...

I went there wash their bathroom, mop the floor and sweep the floor...

I seldom do this kind of things in my house...

Now I am going there to this kind of things..

But I felt meaningful, grateful and happy to do that for the elderly...

After I done all the work....

Then I went to talked with the elderly...

I was cleaning the MEN house...

So I was talking with some Uncle...

Luckily that I can chat well with them...

Really felt nice talked with them..

I was sang for them also...

I so embrassing that they all called me Sing Queen...

I really not that good in sing....

But I so happy that sing to them.....
After we sang...

I saw that Uncle who talked with him just now....

He was crying...

I really felt sad that he was cried...

Of course I cried also...

I really easier to cry...

After visited...

We went to eat IPOH CHICKEN RICE...

Damn nice to eat.........after eat felt like want to sleep...

Really a PIG...

At last...

I was not felt regret that I join STACT CLUB...

I was happy when doing any event with them...

One of my sad things during the event.....

As a program coordinator.....I didn't do it well..

I felt so sorry to them and felt sad to myself...

Zjen Thak who is our assistant of the club..

He said next time I must improve on it..

He said that I do it well..

But need to improve lor...

I hope that I can improve....

That's all for today.....good night everyone.....

priscilla was crying now~~~can't stop to cry

Today was so sad today............T.T

I argued with my elder brother and his wife....

I really felt regret for it.........

I'm really sorry for them............

WHY I don't know how to appreciate that what I have now.........

MY FAMILY MEMBERS really love me and try to give me what i want....

I really don't know how to appreciate it...

Maybe I disappear in this HOUSE .....

They will be more happier...

I was blaming myself...........

I was a useless and idiot person.........

I was hate myself ...

Why I want to born in this world....
Who can tell me why??????

I admit that my attitude was bad....

WORSE than before...

Dad, mun , my brothers and my sister-in-laws.......REALLY SORRY!

I really make you all disappointed....SORRY

I hope that I can change my attitude..............

I really can't to stop right now....

I was just keep crying keep crying.....

I really felt regret and can't stop blaming myself....

I really feel SORRY........

Actually I really LOVE you all.........

One more things is I really fall in love with NICHOLAS.

Don't know why my heart and my mind keep thinking about him..

That day he told me that he will find me after his presentation.....

But until now a message I didn't receive also..........

Just now when I was so sad....I really want to find him.............

BUT I KNOW THAT HE WON'T CARE ABOUT IT...

So I message one of my admirer....PETER

I really felt that I was using him....

Because just find him when I in trouble....

He really treat me good...

But I really don't have feeling in him...

I just can be his friend..........

"SORRY, Peter I really no feeling at you, we just can be friend, I know you treat me well, really SORRY!"

I really felt regret that what I had did today.........

Really sorry to anyone that I had hurt them......

SORRY...........................................................................................................

Fews day that i didn't post something on my blog~~~~

I was quite busy recently, I was busy on my assignment, proposal, meeting and other else.......

I am getting to crazy now~~~~~~~~~~My life getting busy and busy .....

I still looking for someone to share her sad things and need a shoulder from someone that can let her cry and rest........................

I really tired right now.....................

I feels like do not want to do anything...........................

Just want rest for a while...............................

I hope that she can go for a vacation..............

I feels like want to sing right now~~~~~~~~~~

Priscilla is getting tired.....so today just write until here.............

Have a nice day to everyone............good night.....^^

feel like want to crying on my assignment and proposal...

Priscilla really can do it well??? can finish all the assignment and proposal????

I hope that Priscilla can done it all..........I don't want Priscilla be a idiot or useless person....

Priscilla you can do it well...just only depends on your heart...if you got heart sure can do it well...

Priscilla you must gambateh on it.........

Don't give up easily.....

"I really hope that I can do it well...." replied by Priscilla....

well, today I was working for the whole day...quite tired now..

I just edit finish my 2 proposal and already sent to my leader...

then I think want to start to do my assignment...

but really can't sit in front of my laptop anymore...

I really feel sleepy and especially my legs was pain and tired....

really wanted to sleep now...

good night everyone and good night for unknown...

wish everyone has a sweet dream..........

At last,Priscilla was tired and fed up on her assignment and all the things she need to do...

feel like want to start write blog everyday~~~~~

don't know why I feel like want to write something on my blog everyday~~~

i'm still waiting the day will coming....because i really hope that i can meet him one day...

hope we can be a friend...

i really thinking of him everyday...............

i really thinking of you....i don't know your name so that i just call u unknown....

unknown i hope that you can know that i'm thinking of u....

ok...that's all for today....because i have to work tomorrow....

haiz.....i think my life will getting busy soon.......

good night everyone and unknown.....^^

sweet dream...........................

Priscilla u r getting fat~~~~

'Priscilla u r getting fat...."this sentences i already heard from everyone........

haiz....i really fat lar...

dunno how to lose it...i want to lose weight now..

i want wear many nice shirt.....

i need to gambateh...........

priscilla u can do it......^^

gambateh....

i dunwan to hear this kind of sentences again....

hope that can see him again.....i pray for it....

21 of september.....today i went to a party...i meet a guys...i really hope that i can see him again...and wanna be a friend with him...i miss the chance...but i think there is no more chance i can meet him again......so i just pray for it...i hope that i can see him in dream or in the real life......thinking of him....^^

i really thinking of u........i hope that all the best in ur life.....^^

an unforgettable birthday....

18 of september 2009....today is my birthday....i was so happy...because all of my friends gave me an unforgettable birthday...i was so appreaciate that what they had did for me.....they were really caring me...now i just realized that i'm not a lonely person...there is a lot of lovely friend around me....^^

thanks u all...i really can't forgot my birthday day...i will promise u all i won't be so moody the following life...thanks u all...^^

i was so happy for it.......really thanks a lot.....LOVE u all .....mUackss...........

my new life in college and i still love him~~~~~

i already start my college life around 2 months++........college life is a hard life.....
i quite stress in college life.....so many assignment and project want to do.......haiz....
but in college u can met many type of friends........my college friends are quite good..........
dunno wat i want to write about the college life...........i just want to said i'm going to crazy!!!!

other side is i still love my ex....i miss him so much.....he got find me recently.........
frankly speak,when i chat with him via message or talk in the phone....i really want to tell him that i still love him...but i'm not dare to tell him....everytime when i miss him i sure will crying....but he dunno i'm crying because of him.....who can tell him thati still love him.....actually i want to ask him that he still love me or not........but i'm not dare to tell him....i still remember wat he told me before......he told me that.....''I want u be my other part in the life......forever and ever.....'' i still remember!!!!! but he still remember or not...i think he sure forgot it.................
i break up with him almost one year.....but in my heart i still miss him.............................


soh kah him i want tell u that i still love u and miss u.........