Yeah, everything is change.

The feeling, condition, place, conversation, time.

Everything is change.

Life?

That's life, everyone.

Why everytimes I feel that I'm the one who are bad.

Cry and tired.

Don't know why?

Our conversation become little and little.

Haha. Maybe you are busy of doing things.

So, I can understand it.

Lol. Sometimes, I try to say something funny.

But you mostly give me swt or lame to reply it.

Hahaha. Yeah, I understand also.

This is your attitude.

Yeah, I shouldn't blame it.

Just appreciate the time when with you.

Anyway, I don't know what to say ald.

Haha.

Recently, I realized that we almost want to argue with each other when we chatting

I don't know why

Maybe is my problem, so I'm sorry.

At last, we still end up with nothing.

I think the big problem is Me this pig.

Haha.

I always suspect everything of you.

Actually I too love and care you.

There were a lot of girls around you.

I don't know why, maybe you

But, I hope that you won't feel any regretful on being with me.

Sweethear, I love you.

I quite fail to be your girlfriend actually.

I don't know what you want and what you like.

I'm failure.

Thanks for still loving me.

When you say you don't care.
Haha.

My heart like so sour and a bit break.

I don't know why.

I fucking hate myself.

I hate myself.

I don't know why.

I always fail to be girlfriend.

I should not be in this world.

I don't know why I like to cry.

Cry like a shit.

And make you sick of it.

Maybe it will be a irritating things to you.

Sorry.

I might not suitable in this world.

But, we are born in the same date.

But, we are different.

You are useful but I'm useless.

You are good person but I'm bad person.

Haha.

Same date but different people.

I'm tired actually

I'm tired seriously, this semester made me tired.

Everything come together, assignment due date and test almost come with the same date.

I fucking hate myself, seriously.

I'm lazy and useless pig.

Everything also failure.

I hate myself a lot.

By the way, I got a good boyfriend who always zat and sayang me.

Sometimes I really need his hug and shoulder.

As when I tired I can get a hug from him and lie down on his shoulder.

Dear, you really not regret with me? As I'm such a fat and ugly pig.

Haha

Alright. Time to the war. FML

Dear, I cried just now as I feel damn tired and headache.

I think you are sleeping like a pig just now.

I should not disturb you as you got your things to do.

Sweetheart, if can I really need your hurt and shoulder.

I suddenly feel exhausted. I can't stand it anymore.

And I need to go Sunway later as for interview.

Driving.. I'm so tired.

Miss you.

......................

Everytime I feel that I'm not the one who you want.

I feel useless to you.

Sometimes I feel that I'm not understand you well.

Sometimes I really feel sad to it.

I'm not a good girlfriend.

I'm can't give everything you want.

I'm try my best to make you happy but always become a sad and bad moment to you.

I'm always give you troublesome.

I'm always give you sadness.

Sorry, babes.

Maybe I still not improve to be your dear.

Sweetheart, I don't know why I love you so much.

You know(Crying)

Sometimes I feel that I really don't know how to cheer you up.

Because I'm a stupid.

Sweetheart. Love you.

I don't know what should I do and what should I say

Again,

My dear because of business and maintenance become emotional again.

I hate myself that I can't help him.

I just know how to be a kid in front of him.

What should I do and said?

Because what I say to comfort him, he just remain the same.

So, what should I do?

Can someone teach me how?

I scare everyone become emotional.

I don't like the condition.

I think I should not meet him much.

As always use his money.

I should be a good girlfriend. =)

I think I'm not that good as his girlfriend. =(

I should improve myself.

I should arrange the time of myself on study.

Study~~ I want be a useful person in future. =)

I will overcome all the obstacles.

I will waiting for you, sweetheart. =)

Dear, once again I wanna say I love you to you. =)

9th months

Yesterday was the 9th months we have been together.

9th months cannot say it is long or short.

But it made me feel like 10 years and more than that.

Sweetheart, I love you.

Thanks for loving me those time.

Thanks forgive all my mistake.

I do appreciate the time with you although there's a lot of obstacles.

But I'm willing to overcome all the obstacles with you.

Of course I do remember all the days that we had been together.

Sweetheart, I do said I love you so much.

Yeah, sometimes I'm jealous with the stupid brain.

Sorry, I jealous because I too love you.

Sweetheart, You will leaving soon in the time that not more than a year.

I'm scare that day coming to my life

I know I can't change the face.

So, I will face it. (Crying)

Sweetheart, we will be friend again in the time that not more than a year.

After 10 months, we are not couple already as that's a vow we made.

Yeah, I will waiting for you after 5 years.

If the time you don't like me anymore, I will totally give u

p.

Sweetheart, of course I hopefully that we will be together.

I love you.

I love the feelings of this picture, sweetheart

29.09.10 Wednesday

Today I feel so sorry to my dear,

I pull his ears so hard and made him feel headache.

Dear, I'm so sorry.

Then, of course we argue.

He is so angry and I just keep crying.

Suddenly, I'm crying loud as hear that he said: Let's broke up as I'm the one who you want.

In my heart, I was thinking I never said that and I'm really love him.

I told him that I love him so much, I never think he is not the one.

I really love him and I keep crying.

At first, he want to leave me alone in the car as he is not feeling well.

But at last, he hugs me and tell me don't cry.

I love the way he hug me and close to his body, I feel so warm when he hugging me.

He looks hurt when I crying.

At the end, we still fine.

Dear, I just want to tell you. I just love the way you are, don't always said that you are not the one I want.

Dear, i really hope that I can be with you till the end.

Seriously, I love you so much. <3