Scare

I'm scare.

I'm shaking.

No please?

What's the meaning of this?

I ask you respect me a bit but you said no please.

It's totally hurt my heart.

Maybe I should not think too much, and yet you're right as she is just a little girl.

Anyway, do remember I love you and I miss you.

Don't you forgot our promises.

I know you can't stand long distance relationship.

But it a must you have to try.

It is just 3 months, are you have already forgot all those moment and memories when we be together?

I do a lot of things for you, because all I did had those memories.

Because I scare you will forgot in a future and so that it can help you to remember.

Maybe I still can't made you totally fall in love to me but I had fall for you in deep.

Anyway, do take care yourself there.

I write blog because blog will the "person" that can let me express all my feeling.

Got a work

Today I got my work.

It is a way for me to don't think too much.

I'm not really happy but I try to be.

As I still can feel my bf Tan Chyn Woei still got care about me.

Anyway, I wish he don't treat me cool.
As it is really break my heart.

Baby, please don't go and break my heart.

I love you.

No one

Today just done one of my subject for the final,,

Then went to cheongK with friend,

Today is the day that I had been with him 22months and now it had almost over.

Today I wish he will post and tagged or tell me or give me a message that said about it is 22 months.

But at the end it had not happened, and now is 11.59pm.
So, I hopeless.

Anyway, I cry while driving to home from college as when singing I had already control it.

So, while driving home I had cried out loud as car will only the place for me to cry as no one can see.

I just met my secondary school's friend.

I get scolded by mum, and not I need someone to talk about my sadness and cry alone here.

I wish to be tough.

I don't dare to find my boy friend as nowadays he seems busy and yet I scare it will made me feel annoying.

I damn sad now actually. I do not want to cry everyday.

That's all for today.

Today 12.11.2011

Today I had attend 2 different kind of cuisine of wedding party,

one is my primary school's friend wedding, it is a Malay cuisine.

Another one is my college's friend sister, it is a Chinese cuisine.

I'm glad to see both of them can married with their love one.

It is a really happy and precious thing that you can married with the one you love.

It doesn't means that I want marry soon, just that I'm feel glad when I saw them.

Another things, I super hate to be alone as I will cry and this is the reason I always hang out with friend.

Because when with friend, I can control my tears but when I'm alone my tears will drop easily.

I damn emotional recently.

I scare, afraid, insecure, no confident.

I'm sad that I always ask you 10 questions, you will only answer 1 or 2 of it.

I wish I can be special like others.

I wish you will think about me.

I wish you will not leave me.

I wish I can get something simple from you.

I wish I wish, but it is hard.

I will not demanding on you as long as you reply my message.

Somehow, I think I cannot be alone in every situation as I will cry.

I always act nothing in front of others actually I'm not.

I do not hope that you dump me away.

I worry about you and miss you so much.

Life is hard when without you here.

I know you will think I need independent but I had already be independent.

I know you want dump me is easy, but it is hard for me to forgot and let you go.

I hate myself, I'm crying.

I do not want to cry but my tears seriously made me suffer all the time.

I always hope you will come and say

Dear or baby, good night. I miss you.

Actually all of it is a simple things that I want to hear from you.

I know no one can change you as everything you do is follow your heart.

So, I will not demand from you as no use as well.

All I want to say will be, dear I know it is hard for you to maintain our relationship.

But I seriously do not hope that you will leave and dump me alone here.

I love you, baby.

Love.

I won't cry in front of you and others.
I will keep it in my heart.

Seems alright but actually not

I'm the person who always seems alright as keep laughing and smiling but actually not alright.

I wish to cry out loud but I don't want to let others know.

I always cry at a corner which is people don't know.

I always try my best to smile.

I don't want others feel stress or sad.

I scare I can't stand it one day then will totally lost.

I wish to cry on someone shoulder but it is far far away from me.

I wish to see you now but I know it is can't.

Don't worry, I will try my best to be smile as I remember what you wrote inside the card before you leaving.

Smile. :)

I will promise you, just that don't go and break my heart.

We must try our best.

Others always think that wow... You are so good, will not be sad.

Yes! I always smile and laugh.

Actually inside is crying, I just that don't want to let others worry.

Tan Chyn Woei, I miss you and do not worry about me here.

I can't upload those song, but I like to give you the link

王俪婷 Olivia Ong - 海枯石烂

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XPaBiLiysck&feature=related

Lady Antebellum- Need You Know

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OfsZyYPLoI&ob=av2e

Miss you. :)