This song was shown what I wanted to you, meanwhile crying.

Scare

I'm scare.

I'm shaking.

No please?

What's the meaning of this?

I ask you respect me a bit but you said no please.

It's totally hurt my heart.

Maybe I should not think too much, and yet you're right as she is just a little girl.

Anyway, do remember I love you and I miss you.

Don't you forgot our promises.

I know you can't stand long distance relationship.

But it a must you have to try.

It is just 3 months, are you have already forgot all those moment and memories when we be together?

I do a lot of things for you, because all I did had those memories.

Because I scare you will forgot in a future and so that it can help you to remember.

Maybe I still can't made you totally fall in love to me but I had fall for you in deep.

Anyway, do take care yourself there.

I write blog because blog will the "person" that can let me express all my feeling.

Got a work

Today I got my work.

It is a way for me to don't think too much.

I'm not really happy but I try to be.

As I still can feel my bf Tan Chyn Woei still got care about me.

Anyway, I wish he don't treat me cool.
As it is really break my heart.

Baby, please don't go and break my heart.

I love you.

No one

Today just done one of my subject for the final,,

Then went to cheongK with friend,

Today is the day that I had been with him 22months and now it had almost over.

Today I wish he will post and tagged or tell me or give me a message that said about it is 22 months.

But at the end it had not happened, and now is 11.59pm.
So, I hopeless.

Anyway, I cry while driving to home from college as when singing I had already control it.

So, while driving home I had cried out loud as car will only the place for me to cry as no one can see.

I just met my secondary school's friend.

I get scolded by mum, and not I need someone to talk about my sadness and cry alone here.

I wish to be tough.

I don't dare to find my boy friend as nowadays he seems busy and yet I scare it will made me feel annoying.

I damn sad now actually. I do not want to cry everyday.

That's all for today.

Today 12.11.2011

Today I had attend 2 different kind of cuisine of wedding party,

one is my primary school's friend wedding, it is a Malay cuisine.

Another one is my college's friend sister, it is a Chinese cuisine.

I'm glad to see both of them can married with their love one.

It is a really happy and precious thing that you can married with the one you love.

It doesn't means that I want marry soon, just that I'm feel glad when I saw them.

Another things, I super hate to be alone as I will cry and this is the reason I always hang out with friend.

Because when with friend, I can control my tears but when I'm alone my tears will drop easily.

I damn emotional recently.

I scare, afraid, insecure, no confident.

I'm sad that I always ask you 10 questions, you will only answer 1 or 2 of it.

I wish I can be special like others.

I wish you will think about me.

I wish you will not leave me.

I wish I can get something simple from you.

I wish I wish, but it is hard.

I will not demanding on you as long as you reply my message.

Somehow, I think I cannot be alone in every situation as I will cry.

I always act nothing in front of others actually I'm not.

I do not hope that you dump me away.

I worry about you and miss you so much.

Life is hard when without you here.

I know you will think I need independent but I had already be independent.

I know you want dump me is easy, but it is hard for me to forgot and let you go.

I hate myself, I'm crying.

I do not want to cry but my tears seriously made me suffer all the time.

I always hope you will come and say

Dear or baby, good night. I miss you.

Actually all of it is a simple things that I want to hear from you.

I know no one can change you as everything you do is follow your heart.

So, I will not demand from you as no use as well.

All I want to say will be, dear I know it is hard for you to maintain our relationship.

But I seriously do not hope that you will leave and dump me alone here.

I love you, baby.

Love.

I won't cry in front of you and others.
I will keep it in my heart.

Seems alright but actually not

I'm the person who always seems alright as keep laughing and smiling but actually not alright.

I wish to cry out loud but I don't want to let others know.

I always cry at a corner which is people don't know.

I always try my best to smile.

I don't want others feel stress or sad.

I scare I can't stand it one day then will totally lost.

I wish to cry on someone shoulder but it is far far away from me.

I wish to see you now but I know it is can't.

Don't worry, I will try my best to be smile as I remember what you wrote inside the card before you leaving.

Smile. :)

I will promise you, just that don't go and break my heart.

We must try our best.

Others always think that wow... You are so good, will not be sad.

Yes! I always smile and laugh.

Actually inside is crying, I just that don't want to let others worry.

Tan Chyn Woei, I miss you and do not worry about me here.

I can't upload those song, but I like to give you the link

王俪婷 Olivia Ong - 海枯石烂

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XPaBiLiysck&feature=related

Lady Antebellum- Need You Know

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OfsZyYPLoI&ob=av2e

Miss you. :)

Sometimes I should shut up.

Somehow I feel that I should shut up and treat everything naturally and do not think too much as things will become better. The more you worry the worse you had. This is what I had realised. Do not ask a lot of question and let it be and the more important is trust. Yeah! I jealous but I can't change it so I had to change the view of everything. Hehe. I realised that it is better as people won't feel annoying and angry. Hehe. Anyway, I miss you. You know I'm saying about you! Haha. You are the one who claimed that I just posted title. Haha. You are damn perasan! Anyway, hope to see you in future. I can't control and change you as you are just too far away from me. Bit I trust you, sweetheart. I hope you are same as me as well. See you baby and take care there. I can be with you is my precious as I'm not a pretty and do not have a nice body but still you decided to be with me, thanks. :)

The Day is Coming Soon

Yes. The day is coming soon.

It's quite sad when know that the day is just corner.

I hope there were no any change in our relationship, i know we don't know what will happen.

Anyway, Chyn Woei, I will miss you.

Remember our promise. <3

I will try my best

Tan Chyn Woei,

Thanks for giving me the chance. :)

I love you.

I will try my best to made our relationship maintain to the end.

Of course I do need your support too.

I love you and thank you.

I really did wrong a lot of things.

To Chyn Woei

I don't know how to describe the feeling recently,

It's so sudden, you mind think that it's your own right.

Last time we used to be talk a lot and laugh all the time,

but now no more and the feeling is different.

We no more laughing all the time and talk less recently.

The feeling is weird to me, but for you will think that it's alright.

Do you understand my feeling?

I cry everyday doesn't means that I don't want and hate you anymore, and go to find another one.

I'm hurt because my dear suddenly treat me that way, where's my Chyn Woei. :(

Maybe I'm not that important, but I'm your girlfriend.

Let's say if one day I treat you that way, what you feel? Maybe your answer is so?

From that day until now, I keep crying.

Everytime I force myself don't cry but it's hard.

I just want to tell, I really Love you.

It's hurt when you treat me like that.

Another things I want to tell you,

I'm seriously falling in love with you.

Where's the Chyn Woei.

Maybe all the changed of you is because I made it.

I hate myself.

I don't want be like that, because your feeling will fade off one day for sure as you seems like don't care anymore.

Wanna chat with you, but you seems like don't want chat with me.

Seldom chat with me, everytime ask you, you will answer I got nothing to tell you.

I don't want to live a day without you.

Our conversation become lesser and lesser.

Last time you used to be call me Babi, Pig, Dear, Sweetheart.

But recently no more and always answer in a cool way.

And will do those 38 things with me.

No more, why?

Where's my Chyn Woei.

Who used to be hold my hand when cross the road.

Who always care about me.

Who always hold my hands when walking together.

Where are you?

Where are you?

I want my Chyn Woei back. I know it's hard.

Chyn Woei, do understand my feeling.

Seriously, I bet you don't like me to cry everyday.

You should know how much I love you and How much I care about you.

Chyn Woei, we said we want to try our best but now seems like no more chance.

And my confident is become lesser.